| Miracle of Life |
[May. 20th, 2004|08:06 am] |
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Almost 24 hours ago, I got to experience the most amazing thing life has to offer... the birth of a child.
My baby sister (of course she's not a baby, but she's 8 years younger than me) went into labor yesterday morning with her second child. I missed the birth of her first child, as I was recovering from major surgery, but I refused to miss this one. I wanted to make sure I was at the hospital to hear my new neice or nephew cry for the first time. What I got to witness was the entire thing... from the mid-stages of labor to the actual birth, and I can not even begin to describe the swell of emotions I had during the process. I was laughing one minute and bawling like a child the next. I was filled with joy, fear, sorrow, excitement... the list goes on. It was truly amazing, to see my baby sister go through what I myself had been through twice before, and then to see her relax and look into the eyes of my brand new neice.
Shannon Elaine McPherson was born 5/19/04 @ 9:40am, weighing in at 8lbs (even) and 19 inches long... and I, for the first time in my life, got to witness the miracle of birth. What an absolutely breath taking experience. This is one memory, one experience, that I would not trade for anything in the world! |
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[May. 13th, 2004|09:36 am] |
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I took Danyella to another counciling appointment yesterday, and actually stayed through the whole thing. We discussed her "outbursts" which happen daily, sometimes multiple times in one day. I asked the councelor for suggestions on how to teach her to control the outbursts, and he said that before we teach her HOW to control her anger, we need to reduce the number of outbursts she has. In working to reduce the outbursts, that in itself will help her become more aware of her anger. Sometimes I wonder if it is something that I have done, or issues with my parenting, that are causing these tantrums that she's having. I presented this to her councelor and he said although it may have something to do with it, a lot of times it's just something within the child, not so much a brain defect, but just an inability to "get their way" or "do what they want". I try so hard to make sure that I'm fair and resonable with both my girls, and give them lots of attention, as these are things that I did not receive as a child. Sometimes it works, and other times it does not. It is so hard to be firm and consistant when they are not consistant in their behaviors. Sometimes I can ask Dany to do something and she does it no problems and no questions asked. Other times, I'll ask her to do the same thing (on a different day of course) and she starts throwing a tantrum. Sometimes I feel that more is expected of me because I am a single parent. I feel that I'm not allowed to lose my temper when their behavior is so terrible, therefore I withdrawal and lock myself in my room... it's horrible sometimes, and very upsetting. I'm not looking for perfection, just a little stability, and I don't know where to get that... I don't know how to find that within myself.
Tomorrow, we are testing Dany for ADHD, more so the hyperactivity portion of it, as she is extremely bright. Her appointment is at 9:30am, and according to the councelor, we should have the results immediately. The results of this will allow for qualifications of special programs in which to help Dany gain control of her behavior, and also, programs that will assist me in learning how to deal with her behavior in a manner that is more appropriate for her. Anything at this point will help. With finals coming up, her behavior problems and the lack of support/interest from her father, I feel like I'm about ready to lose it!! I just keep looking forward to the tomorrows in hopes that they will be better than my todays. |
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| UUUGGGHHH!!! |
[May. 12th, 2004|10:19 am] |
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| | Only that which is in my head! LOL | ] |
Finals are upon us and I am not feeling very prepared. I'm still trying to spit out my Research Paper for English and Sociology, and it's not going very well. I figured my topic, The rise of Juvenile Crime, would have been easy for me since I've worked with juvenile delinquents before... shoot, I was a delinquent!! I have first hand information, but for some reason, I am having the hardest time putting it down on paper. It's so frustrating!! UUUGGGHHH!!! |
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| False Alarms |
[May. 10th, 2004|12:23 pm] |
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UGH! The pleasures of the false alarms! My little sister Shellie, is due to have her second child any day, and we have all been anxiously awaiting the new arrival. I went to Susanville this morning very early, and on my way back to class, I got a call from her stating that they were on their way to the hospital and asked if I could come pick up my little neice. I was already to Quincy by time I got the message, and actually beat them to the hospital. I ran inside (before I knew they hadn't gotten there yet) looking for her, and the nurse's said she hadn't showed up, but thanked me for letting them know she was coming... hahahaha Anyway, I stayed there for about 45 minutes (it's a 30 minute drive from their house to the hospital), until finally I went back inside to see if they had heard from her. The receptionist said, "Oh yeah, her Mother-in-law called and said it was a false alarm". AAARRRGGGHHH!!! So, off to school I went... ever so disappointed! No where near as much as I'm sure my sister is... she is VERY pregnant, and probably very miserable. I remember that stage of pregnancy, and it's very frustrating! Well, hopefully we'll have a new baby here in the next week! We are hoping for a boy as most of the Grandbabies in our family (between my sisters and I) are girls. We have 1 boy and four girls. We are hoping for another boy to spoil!! I'm sure my brother-in-law is hoping the same thing so they can kind of even things out in the house hold... currently he's out numbered 2 to 1! LOL |
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| TGIF!! |
[May. 7th, 2004|10:33 am] |
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I have to say, I am very happy today is Friday! It's been one hell of a week at school, and I'm looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. Yippee!! That, and I need to get as much rest as I can... Finals are only two weeks away, then the semester is out. That will be another nice change!
I went to Reno with Scott on Wednesday to pick up Maitland from the Airport. It was pretty cool! I feel like a midget next to Maitland, criminay, he's tall! Apparently, he's never been to a Jack in the Box, so we went there for lunch. I slept most of the way back from Reno... tired and worn out and it was only Wednesday! LOL
But, it was also Dany's birthday on Wednesday, and my current financial status made it pretty hard to do anything for her. But we ended up pulling it off, thanx to my little sister Shellie and Nana. We were able to do Pizza and cupcakes, and Nana picked up a couple present for her from me. What a woman. One day I'm going to have to write an entry just about that woman and the kind of stuff she has done for me. She is an amazing lady I tell you. Purely unselfish, goes out of her way to help those in need... namely me! LOL
Anyway, today is Dany's first actual "talk to the councelor" counceling appointment. I'm actually pretty excited for her, as she may learn that this will be an avenue for her to express herself so she doesn't have so many outbursts. You know, if they were every so often, it wouldn't really bother me, but she has these little anger outbursts everyday, and I don't truly know where they stem from... I have my ideas, but they are just ideas. Anyway, I have to do my Algebra homework before class and I only have 15 minutes... |
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